Dear friend from the past.
You changed. I can see it, or you have always been the same and I am just noticing it now. I have been the one to struggle with being me, vocally struggle. You always appear so strong though whenever I share you agree that you feel the same. Why won’t you share what you feel, when you feel it, first? Why won’t you say anything to me ? Am I not trust worthy ?
When I look back at our conversations I see conversation where I have been fucked up in mood and the way of thinking. You have always just been listening and consoling. Are you really that strong ? Don’t you need me ?
Why do I have this immense need to feel needed ?